Healing My Relationship With My Body
I wanted to share a personal story with you not because I want sympathy but to convey empathy. I know what you are going through, and I am here to support you through your journey.
In my early teens, I was diagnosed and hospitalized with Anorexia Nervosa. I felt this need to be in control; my transition to high school felt very chaotic, and I began focusing on food and my physical appearance. I vividly remember my hospital stay. First, I saw a psychologist and nutritionist, but I remember needing more.
One day, I kneeled on the floor, begging to be saved from this torture. Then, I began praying, seeking assistance and guidance to overcome my Eating Disorder.
This was pivotal in my recovery journey because I realized I could get through this. At the same time, I had a higher source helping me and guiding me through each step, never knowing what the next step was.
I intuitively allowed messages to come to me. Initially, I needed to nourish myself with fluids, then slowly reintroduce foods. As days and months went on, there were other messages that I allowed myself to perceive. Even at a young age, I knew I had to let go of the number on the scale, and I did a burning ceremony around the fear of the number on the scale.
I revisited my eating disorder journey as I was still trying to figure out my life in my early twenties. I tried to understand what the lesson was for me. Although I was no longer in a place of restriction or body shame, I was still experiencing the desire of "not being good enough." This showed up in schooling, relationships, and physical appearance as perfectionism.
I started working with a conscious coach, who made me realize that there were many wounds I had yet to work through. I proceeded to do many spiritual practices to guide my healing. I finally was able to get to a place where I started seeing myself differently and loving myself more and more. This Inner freedom sparked my desire to share my knowledge and help others that craved this spiritual healing.
Reminder: You are never alone. You are so deserving. You can fully heal your relationship with your body and find inner freedom.
If you are struggling with your relationship with your body and are craving this freedom, please feel free to reach out.
